I feel like I’m never satisfied! like I need more and more from the outside, goal after goal I. JUST. NEED. MORE. I ask myself, am I even thankful for what I have accomplished and where I am now? I’m always looking ahead never present in the current moment.

This has been my downfall over the years. Looking for gratification from outside sources or accomplishments is never the way to feel proud of oneself. Maybe internally I’m truly not happy with myself which is why I keep falling into the same cycle. Its crazy because this time last year I wasn’t on the level that I am on now and it’s almost as if I don’t even appreciate that growth. Like damn what more can I ask for? I’ve grown mentally, emotionally, physically and financially! I have really upgraded myself.

It’s crazy how not seeing your self worth effects so many things outside of dating and relationships. I never knew that these things existed in myself like they do. Sometimes it takes an outside person to remind you every now and then what you are to the world. But, at the same time, you as an individual needs to be able to remind yourself that you are on some boss shit!

I truly appreciate the people I have in my life that refuse to let me fail. People that believe in me more than I believe in myself at times and that want to see me win. I have started to look at me and my truth. I haven’t fully committed to the fact that I legit can do anything but thinking back, anything that I was passionate about that I really wanted to happen, has happened for me in some way shape or form so why am I tripping? I am better than what I have allowed myself to be, I am better than my own two eyes can see.

I’m way better than I use to be but I still got some work to do.

~ The Mouthy Introvert